the girl of my dreams

‘Don’t dream your life, live your dreams’, this has been my life quote for many years. A reason for me to wake up strong, every morning with a big smile on my face. Thanks to this quote I have been able to achieve great things in life, I worked hard to climb the social ladder and learned to decide for myself what and who I want to become.
As a young girl, I used to have big dreams, and as long as I remember, I always wanted to add some value to society. 10 years ago, I used to live in Guinee Conakry, a beautiful country in Western Africa that I called home. Back in the days, I was the girl of my dreams, that one person that could make everybody smile, young and old. A curious spirit who loved to give and to learn, and who was adored by all. Moving to the Netherlands, the country where I currently live and call home has changed me in many ways. The cultural clash, the new norms, values, and language that I had to learn weighted heavy on me. Nevertheless, after six months of having dutch classes, I was able to speak fluently Dutch and to ingrate into Dutch society.
However, integrating into Dutch society meant for 10 years old me, for one reason or the other giving up on the girl I used to be back in Guinee. In my first year of going to school in the Netherlands, I was bullied, I didn’t like it and as an African with personality, I fought back. But the problem was that it never mattered whether I was wrong or wronged, I was always to blame. And so I thought that I had to change, that I had to become the person the people, my classmates liked. Even if that meant not being the real me. At home, I could be the girl from Guinee, that girl with a huge imagination, big dreams, the one who always had something to say. And outside, outside I was the silent, the nice and the helpful, the one who even though she had an opinion, kept herself silent.
Now that girl is no more, in the last few years, I have tried hard my best to become the person I was or want to be, rather than the person society thinks that I am, or wants me to be. In doing so I have achieved great things. I know that I am still not the person I am meant to be, but I am working on it. I Still remain silent in public, but I have a huge voice and I want to be heard. I want to change the world and know it won’t happen right away but I am patient. And through this blog, I want to share with everyone who is willing to read, my dreams, passions, life experiences, culture and my motivational talks.
This blog will be my voice, the medium through which I can express my feelings, be heard and hopefully be able to add value in my own way to society.

Thanks for reading and for joining me!

Hadia
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